Former WWE Superstar Kaitlyn is opening up about her battle with drug and alcohol addiction.
Kaitlyn, whose real name is Celeste Bonin, shared her story via Instagram on the one-year anniversary of checking herself in for a drug detox.
“I remember getting out of the hospital feeling like death, with a medical taper plan of meds and thinking, ‘What have I done to myself?'”
“I celebrated my 30th birthday 5 days later and I remember wanting to die.”
Kaitlyn says a lot of people get hooked on those detox meds, but she instead turned to alcohol to deal with her depression and anxiety.
The one-time Divas Champion didn’t detail exactly how she overcame her addictions — or the drug(s) she was hooked on — but says she’s been able to rebuild her life in the time since.
Kaitlyn left off with a message for anyone in her shoes: “Never be too proud to ask for help. Be able to wake up and look at yourself in the mirror.”
It's been one year since I checked myself into the hospital for a medical drug detox. (I took this picture in the airport bathroom after flying into LAX.I felt so awful and disgusted with myself but I remember posting it on Instagram with some stupid caption about being happy. I was actually on the last days of the medicine to help me detox and was in a super fucked up place mentally and physically). Over the past few years I was in a terrible marriage, an addict and not true to myself. It took me so long to admit I had a problem… and then to admit how serious the problem was. I used to pretend to be and to live a certain way for social media. It's everyone's hi-light reel. I remember getting out of the hospital feeling like death, with a medical taper plan of meds and thinking "what have I done to myself?". I celebrated my 30th birthday 5 days later and I remember wanting to die. If you've ever gone through serious drug detox, you know that you basically go through two detoxes. One from the initial drug(s) and then another one from the medicine used to help you detox. A lot of people get hooked on the medicine and remain addicts. For me, I started abusing alcohol to deal with the chemical imbalances, panic attacks and sadness/depression I was experiencing. If you know me, you know I had never done a drug in my life leading up to this (besides smoking weed once or twice and freaking the fuck out.) It's so crazy. You can have the world at your fingertips but end up destroying yourself if you're not careful. I'm fortunate enough to have pulled myself out of it all and was able rebuild my life …but I can seriously empathize with anyone who is, has been, or has a tendency to be an addict (we're all addicted to something). But it's about self awareness and humility. Never be too proud to ask for help. Be able to wake up and look at yourself in the mirror. Tag someone who needs to read this. #addiction